LIFE CAN KNOCK YOU DOWN...

 

Most people would say that I am the happiest, most grateful, and the most positive person with the BEST LIFE EVER! All these things are 100% true, but I built this BEST LIFE EVER!

I have hit the bathroom floor personally and professionally a few times.  I have spent gazillions of hours of my time and dollars on books, seminars, retreats, classes, coaching, and healers to learn how to heal the wounds of my life and build my life to who I am now.  My message is that life can knock you down to the bathroom floor, you can heal your wounds of life, and you can build your BEST LIFE EVER!

I thought I would share some of my life story with the intent to inspire, motivate, and teach that even though LIFE can knock you down to the bathroom floor; you can heal the wounds of life, and you can build your BEST LIFE EVER!

 

I know that I was wanted as a child because my mom and dad tried for 7 years to have me, they finally gave up, bought a new house and a new boat, and then BAM, Kristine was on her way.  I have some warm and fuzzy memories of my early childhood.  We lived in Jacksonville Beach, FL and family were all around.  My grandparents on my mom’s side were my Pappaw and my Mammaw.  They gave me the most love that I have felt in this lifetime.  They gave me 100% of all their time, money, energy, and love!  A grandparent’s love is the BEST love because they have already built their life, and they are just love!  I was their favorite, and I loved it!  My grandfather passed in 2005, my grandmother passed in 2018, and a piece of joy in my heart passed with them.

 

My dad’s side of the family was tortured with trauma and rage.  My great grandfather was William J. Kennedy and was married to Edna M. Therrien Kennedy. They had 3 children; Raymond who was my grandfather, and two twin girls Joan and Doris.  In 1935, the family was leaving church when they were hit by a drunk driver.  My great grandfather died instantly, my great grandmother was in a coma for 3 months, and one twin sister, Doris, died instantly.  My grandfather, Raymond, carried the other twin sister who was only 3 years old, Joan, to find help.  Raymond was only 12 and he instantly became the man of the house.  Later he married my grandmother, Viola, who was an orphan and raised in a convict with nuns.  It was always known that Ray was “hard “and that his goal was to always make someone cry.  He was mean to his four boys, he loved the belt, and he would make them kneel on the floor a/c vents for punishment.  I don’t really have any nice memories about him as a grandchild.  I remember him pulling my pants down in front of the family when I was 5 or 6 to show everyone my birthmark, I remember him biting me when I was 9 or 10, and I remember him getting all the grandchildren coal and switches for Christmas.  I just remember thinking he was mean!   As an adult, I’m assuming that he probably hated God for the car accident, losing his father, losing his sibling, losing his childhood, and losing everything that he had known.  My grandfather never really got his life in order. He never could keep a job; he died dirt poor in a mobile home park where all he did was watch tv and eat.

 

When I was 7, my younger brother Ryan was diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor, and my mom and dad’s attention went to Ryan.  When I was 9, they moved us to Penney Farms, and the country life began.  They pulled me away from my grandparents, my uncles and aunts, and my cousins.  They replaced the family with a horse and other farm life animals.  We were now country. 

 

My dad was Vernon J. Kennedy, and he had a rough childhood full of physical and verbal abuse. He didn’t grow up with affection, so he didn’t know how to show affection. I think that life took over, and life knocks you down sometimes.  My mom has many stories of my dad yelling at her before I was born.  He did better than his dad with me, but he was very mean to my brother. He would scream, “GD get your head out of your as*, you are good for nothing, all you do it eat, shiz, and sleep, GD this and GD that!”  The house was always loud with screaming, and although he didn’t yell at me directly, I would just walk around trying to be “a good little girl.” I don’t know if he ever gave me a compliment. That is probably why words are my thing, and I move toward them. I am just the little girl waiting on my dad to give me the words of love that I always wanted to hear.

 

I had a big family, but today I would say I have a small family.  I still have my mom, and she is the living example of using her life to give back and make a difference to everyone that she meets.  My message is to love those while you have them.

Kayleigh is kind, smart, giving, and beautiful.  She thrived while she was away at the University of Florida, and she loves freedom!  She was the President of her rugby team at UF, and she was active with volunteering with AED.  She did everything to qualify for the Bright Futures Scholarship, she kept her expenses super skinny, and she graduated college with zero student debt.  She has her first job, she still plays rugby, she goes to the gym, she cooks, she rides her motorcycle around town, she plays guitar and posts her content on YouTube.  We have always been BEST friends because it was always just her and I. We have the deepest conversations about life, and she is emotionally mature well beyond her years.  She has her own view on all things, and she teaches me new things all the time.  We have walked this life together through all the heights and all of the lows!  Today she is the most grateful person with the ability to say a true heartfelt “thank you” because she has witnessed the lack and the privilege of life.

I have had lots of friends, lost some best friends, thought people were friends, thought I didn’t need any friends.  Today I have a few BEST friends that walk this life with me. I take my time, energy, money, and I try to give and receive love from them.

I was married to Kayleigh’s dad who is a good man, I cheated, I blew that up because of postpartum depression and I was looking to feel alive, I fell crazy high in love the most alive narcissist, then was cheated on and lost all of my material life when karma came around, then hated men for a few years, then dated a little, then loved a few times, then had a few unhealthy relationships, and of course I sabotaged myself a few times, and then I had to learn how to see, feel, and value what men provide.  My favorite book on this topic is Allison Armstrong “Queen's Code.”  Today everyone knows my love story with Trey!  He meets ALL my needs, and he says that “I bring out the BEST Trey.”  I   Wam married to the most incredible man that God built just for me!

 

I have always loved reading, and I usually have a book in my hands.  I have always been able to read something and see the basic key points or the outline as I read.  In school, I would read the curriculum and break it down to a table of contents.  I would rewrite the curriculum into my own book report and then only study my notes that I put in a report form.  School was easy for me, which I believe was due to the ability to break down the hundreds of pages curriculum into a few pages of data.

 

After school, I continued my process.  I would read a book, highlight the key points, and then write myself a report.  I felt that if I read and then rewrote the data into a report format that it would lock the data in my memory.  My conversations with my friends usually revolved around my current book, and then I started sharing my reports with my friends. 

 

At the age of 29 in 2004, I went through what I call my “ego hurricane.”  I started making more money, and my priorities quickly changed to getting “more”.  I started focusing on getting more toys, clothes, cars, bigger houses, and a new relationship, etc.  My old life wasn't “good enough” any longer, and I was determined to create a “better life” despite my friend’s opinions.  There was nothing that could have stopped me on my path.  I left all the old, which included Kayleigh’s dad, and I started to create my new life.

 

After a few years, the “highs” of life started bringing in the “lows.”  I woke up from my “ego hurricane” and stood up to look at my life.  By the end of 2008, I had lost my loyal husband, I lost 50% custody of my only child, I lost my dream house due to foreclosure, I lost my credit due to bankruptcy, I lost my health and my blood pressure went to 170/120, I lost my desire to go to work, and I lost the rest of the material world that I thought was so important to “get,” and I lost my desire to live.”

 

The guilt and the pain of all my actions started to eat away at me.  All I had was scrapbooks of pictures that I didn’t want to look at!  One Sunday morning on the way home from my mom’s house I was driving over the Buckman Bridge, and I thought that it would just be easier to drive off!   In that moment, I heard the loudest voice in my head that said, “NO ONE WILL LOVE KAYLEIGH LIKE YOU DO!”  Thank God that I made it home safely, I crawled into the shower, I laid on the floor, and I cried until the water turned cold. 

 

Kayleigh was my “WHY” in my breakthrough moment. She was my “something bigger than me.”  I needed to live to love Kayleigh the only way I, her mom, could.  I decided at that moment that I needed to focus on work to make money for her.  She needed food, shelter, and clothes.  She gave me the desire to focus on work again, which I had previously lost because staying in bed was much comfier.  She also needed a mom to be an example of how to be a girl, how to get the chores done, how to have fun, and how to find her passions.  Most importantly I needed to teach her how to create the life that she wanted, how to think, words to speak, actions to take, emotions to focus on, and how to celebrate this life.  Kayleigh needed me to walk this life with her!

Since the “outside world” wasn't working for me, I turned to my books and the “inside world.”  I engulfed myself in my studies.  I was looking for wholeness and happiness.  What could I do to possibly find the real source of happiness?   I would take my reports, review them, cry, write, take notes, and journal.  I began to consolidate my reports to try to become a whole person.  I put the reports into categories and began to see how it all fits together.  I would read, write, study, and journal for hours passionately.  I bought a huge binder, tons of notebook paper, and dividers.   All the books seemed to touch on the same topics, and all the data looked like it fit together.  The glue of the data seemed to be energy.   I always kept a binder with my one-page reports with me so that I could access the data necessary to whatever was going on in my life at any given moment.

 

This binder became my “Keys to The Best Year Ever” content which I turned into a seminar and taught as many people as I could get to listen.  This is my message

I hit the floor professionally on Thursday November 8, 2018, when I walked into Watson Mortgage (FYI they are no longer in business) into what I thought was a business development meeting and after 16 years of loyal service, I was handed an immediate TERMINATION notice to sign.

They asked me for my laptop and after I gave my laptop to them in shock, I made a few phone calls, drove home, I poured some wine, and I cried in disbelief. 

My main thought was, “How could Watson Mortgage fire me?  I am a single mom with a 16-year-old, and I have been here for 16 years of loyal service with no warning, no write up, nor any notice?”  What kind of company could do that?

I lost all the commissions on my loans that I had in my pipeline, I lost all the commissions on my new contracts, I could not originate any new loans until I could find a place to hang my mortgage license, and they slapped me with a non-compete for 1 year.  They took my website which was 100% my content, they took my email signatures that I created, they took my database, and they took anything else that would help me rebuild my business.

My mom’s birthday was the next day, so I talked to Dane on my drive to the restaurant, wiped off my tears, and walked into Chili’s to celebrate with my mom, Kayleigh and Ryan.

I took Friday and Saturday to cry, Sunday I was angry, and by Monday I was in survival mode.  My future had to be planned and planned quickly since I had a daughter that needed a roof over her head and food on the table. Interesting Kayleigh was my “WHY” for this part of my life as well

Worse case, I thought, “I could sell my house and Kayleigh, and I could move in with my mom.”  I also thought, “I could go anywhere and work as a mortgage processor because I do know how to move a file through the system better than anyone in the city!”

This was by far the hardest professional year of my life!  I didn’t plan for it!  I didn’t make the decision to leave my old company!  I didn’t choose this path for myself!

I knew my thinking was distorted from my normal KK (I could remember that I had even created a BEST YEAR EVER seminar which I taught several times.)  I went back to the basics of my life which are my “KEYS TO THE BEST YEAR EVER.”

Today I really should write a “thank you” card to Mr. Watson for giving me the opportunity to be who I am today, which is a Branch Manager for the greatest company in the nation.  I get to say “YES” to what I choose to say “YES” too.  I have a say in every decision and every choice that is made, and I get to help a lot more people!  I get to make a bigger difference with my life

Below is my path of healing my “wounds of life” that happen, and how I built this life that I have today.

My first and favorite book OF ALL TIME is by Louise Hay “You Can Heal Your Life” and still today I give it to everyone:). It is the greatest book to teach you that your thoughts create your life!  If you tell me how your body is sick; I can tell you what your thoughts are.  I have read this book 1000’s of times, and I still reference it today. 

 

My second favorite book OF ALL TIME was given to me by my counselor is “The 5 Love Languages,” and it teaches how different people feel love in different ways.  My message is that you can love someone all day, but if it is not their love language then you are not loving them.  You should spend your time, energy, and money on their love language so that the other person FEELS the love that you're trying to give. I now truly try to love everyone with their love language. 

 

I found Yoga-Den in 2008, and I love yoga. Trey and I go every Saturday.  The study of Yoga is 2500 years old, and the ancient yogis had the wisdom to move the energy up the spine and up the chakra system. When you do yoga, you are moving your “wounds of life” that are stuck in your body’s chakra system.  The owner of Yoga-Den, Alyson, does a beginner’s class on Saturdays at 10:00 for my friends who want to try:)

 

I started going to Celebration Church, but today I watch Joel Osteen everyday while I am at work.  He keeps my day positive!  Trey and I watch Joel Osteen every Sunday.

 

In 2012, I attended my first Tony Robbins UPW event and then I attended 3 more UPW’s, Date with Destiny, and Business Mastery twice. Tony gives you a master’s degree in real life :). I still do his priming gratitude exercise every morning.

 

I hired a coach, and we worked to heal the wounds of life, the things that I felt not worthy of,o the beliefs that I believed that were not true, and although my coaches have changed, I still have a coach today.

 

In 2009, I found Dr. Joe Dispenza in the movie “What the Bleep Do You Know” which I still have and would be happy to give it to anyone.  He presented a new concept about thoughts and things, but he is deep, so it took a while to grasp.  In 2016, I did his online classes which are on his website.  I have his books on paper and on audible.  Then in 2018, I went to his retreat.  I have gone every year since, and he is my current Geru. I do his walking meditation a few days a week, and my favorite is “Walking Mediation Unlock the Code” which is on You Tube and on his website.

 

In 2016, I found Dr. Owais who is a chiropractor who focuses on “Orthospinology '' which is getting the atlas (your very top vertebrae) in line so then the rest of your spine will work optimally.  Every nerve in our body runs through our spinal cord, and keeping the spine clear is one of the keys to health.  My Mom and I both see her every other week.

 

In 2018, I found Dr. Kristy Harvell who is a chiropractor who I see for “Nutritional Response Testing” and “Applied Kinesiology” where she uses manual muscle testing to uncover the underlying and the hidden causes of illness.  I use supplements since our food is void of nutrients, and when you give your body the vitamins, minerals, and amino acids that “YOU” are deficient in; then “YOU” give your body the raw materials it needs to heal.  Do you know that not all bodies want the same nutrients?  For example, your body might want calcium, it might not want vitamin c, etc.

 

In 2021, I found Dr. Michael and Dr. Meaghan Longyear who own “Brain Optimization Institute.” Dr. Mike’s book “Never Accept Your New Normal” is his story where he was diagnosed with “a spinal stroke at C7-T1” and his doctor’s words were “you will never walk again.”  Today he is fully healed, and he lives a normal life.  Using neuroscience, he teaches how our bodies can heal our trauma and how our brain and body can turn that trauma into triumph.

 

My body was in full survival mode.  I had a constant headache.  My home and my car were full of every headache medicine that is on the shelf.  I took the white ones, the red ones, the allergy ones, the Claritin D ones, you name it, I took it, I combined it, and none of them worked.  Everything I ate gave me a headache, so I didn’t feel like eating.  I would fall into bed at 7 pm fully exhausted, take an Ambien, and wake up before midnight the same day, OMG, and I would stare at the ceiling the rest of the evening, checking email, and scrolling social media.  My body was constantly stuck in FULL TRAUMA RESPONSE, and I HURT!

 

NET is “Neuro Emotional Technique” releases the emotions and the “wounds of life” that get stuck in the body and stuck in the limbic part of the brain.  Something can happen to you at an early age, and then later in life those emotions and wounds can resurface.  Until you heal that core wound, you will feel that negative emotion over and over and over.

 

NAET is “Nambudripad's Allergy Elimination Technique to clear my allergic reactions to food and now ALL my allergies are cleared, and I can eat anything my heart craves.

 

Today I have Dr. Mike for functional neurology, which in my words is total body healing. I have Dr. Meg, who uses NET to release my trapped emotions and clear them so that my body can heal. She uses NAET to clear all my allergies.  Trey sees Dr. Mike monthly to keep his body and brain at optimal capacity.

 

In 2024, I found Dr. Natasha Musser who is a chiropractor who does Emotion Code and Body Code which is a technique where she removes trauma from my body remotely.

 

Today I removed ALL the sleeping pills and ALL the headache medicine from my home and car.  I no longer need anything.  I sleep from 10-5, and my cell phone stays in the kitchen until I pick it up on the way out to work.

 

Every day, I give myself the gift of quiet time before the world wakes up.  I give my brain and body a voice by giving my thoughts and feelings a space to come up, see them, acknowledge them, learn from them, and then allow them to move on.  I journal my thoughts and feelings, I write, I cry, I feel, I feel angry, I feel disappointed, and whatever else is coming up.

 

I look at my thoughts, I study my thoughts, and I pick strategic thoughts of affirmations that serve me.  I have a list of positive “point of attraction” affirmations for every point in my life.  When someone asks me how my day is, I always state something positive “I am wonderful, I am terrific, I am having the best day ever, I’m fantastic, etc.”  A great basic affirmation is “every day and every day I am getting better and better and better!”

 

Most importantly I allow myself to feel love, and I have a daily gratitude journal that I write the things that have made my heart smile.  I find things to be grateful for .  The original book that taught me how to be grateful was “Simple Abundance.”  It is a book of 365 ways Sarah Ban Breathnach saw life’s simple abundance.

 

MY BASICS FOR HEALING:

Give yourself the gift of quiet time, give your brain and your body a voice by giving them time, journal, look at your thoughts and feelings, pick a great affirmation and think and speak it ALL DAY EVERYDAY, order a book, listen to Louise Hay on audible, ask the people you love how you can love on them more, hire a coach, find Joel Osteen on any social media and listen to his positivity, open your heart and google Tony Robbins priming exercise, feel some love, You Tube Dr. Joe Dispenza’s walking meditation and go for a walk, go to a yoga class, find a chiropractor who specializes in your needs, google NET or EMOTION CODE to find someone who can help release your old emotions, create a gratitude journal….and give yourself some space to heal

Go build your BEST LIFE EVER!

 

MY INTENTION

This is my personal attempt to achieve my BEST life.  It is a compilation of my notes from the books that I have read.  I believe that I have mastered this way of life.  This is how I think, speak, feel, and act every day.  I now believe that it is my destiny to share my path with the intention to inspire, motivate, and teach that you can heal your wounds of life and you can build your BEST LIFE EVER! 

This is the space for you to go deeper, give you new ways of seeing things, and invite your BEST SELF to join you to build your BEST LIFE EVER!